2018

Y’all…I’ve been on a little hiatus for a while.

Houston went through a lot in 2017, a jerk named Harvey came & reeked havoc on us and other parts of Texas & the next couple of years are going to be spent recovering.

The silver lining was watching our home team, The Houston (mother freaking) Astros, win the World Series.

I don’t think I have ever cried more times in a year than in 2017.

Happy & sad tears of course.

As you may have noticed, my blog has become less about food and more about life.

Apparently, y’all don’t care either way b/c I have had tons of positive feedback.

I recently had someone tell me (& I quote), “your blog is pimp AF,” & I about died of laughter.

Ohhhhh…this old thing?

I definitely believe that being “real” with people about certain things/happenings in your life can help them relate to you.

Not that I broadcast my life over this thing. Buttttttt…I do talk about some of the crap that I’ve been through. Everything else is private.

So, this is day four of 2018 & it’s going fairly well for me.

2017 was a year of growth and a ton of lessons.

I started 2017 in not so great of spirits having recently gone through a lil bit of somethin’.

I remember being at my parents on Christmas & after spending the day with family, surrounded by my lil sister & her bf, & all of my cousins & their significant others, & my parents, I had a freaking emotional breakdown in my car in my parent’s driveway.

I remember telling my mom, “Mom, this is just way too much LOVE for me to be around, my heart is broken into a million pieces & it’s nothing against y’all, I just can’t be around this.”

My parent’s were pretty much in shock that I was in this state of mind. I rarely let anything get to me & am a pretty tough chica when I need to be.

I have been through some crap & i am surprised at how brave i can be, not only for myself, but for people that i love.

Well that time, i crumbled. Guess what? My heart was involved. I let myself actually let go & care for someone & low & behold…destruction occurred.

It’s a feeling I never felt & one that I can’t describe.

I remember my baby sister hugging me & telling me that she understood. My BABY freaking sister y’all. I’m supposed to be her rock. Not the other way around.

I spent NYE at home, on my couch, snuggling with my 95 lb. labrador, drinking a bottle of wine, & listening to Texas country. I watched the ball drop & had my first cry of 2017.

Enter January, where I decided to pick myself up & get shit done with my job.

I met my best friend at work & we became roomies in May. She saw me jump into a relationship out of convenience, because I was lonely, & she saw & heard me question it every.single.day.

My heart wasn’t ready. I wasn’t even in LIKE with this guy. I think I tried to convince myself that I was. I know, it’s a terrible thing to say. It made me question myself. I broke up with him. It was like kissing my brother (if I had a brother).

I’m Italian, we are passionate people. Can ya blame me for wanting to feel & be loved?

My heart belonged to someone who kinda ripped it out, stomped on it, & put it back in my chest…shattered.

It still belongs to that person.

The rest of 2017 had it’s highs and lows, but I wouldn’t change it for the world. I would go back and do it again. I turn 30 in a little over a month. Am I scared? Heck no. I’m soooo excited.

2017 was the year I cleaned house w/ my “friends” and made my circle of friends tighter. I can truly say, ridding myself of toxic friendships has been the best decision I have ever made.

I grew w/ God in my relationship (as I do every year), & I was reminded continuously of my good hearted qualities.

I would rather have someone compliment me on my “heart of gold,” rather than on my outer appearance.

I don’t know what 2018 holds but I know what I want, & I’m gonna go get it.

Watch out & stay tuned (don’t worry I’ll be back w/ some pretty amazing recipes).

XOXO, gossip girl.

JK.

Love y’all.

Chels

 

Comments

  1. Renee says:

    Attagirl! Tell it like it is, use God’s little whispers and be transparent. Doing this with yourself is called “being real.” I know people in their 50’s that are still hiding and not living. Put it out there and pour it out there my girl, the more uncomfortable you are the more you know God is working on you. How awesome you have HIM in your corner and even better you listen to him and he uses you as his vessell. Remember, voicing the words “life is good” are just words….life is good when God uses you in magical ways and you see his importance in you. Changing others lives for the better, changes YOU! You inspire me to be as REAL, RAW, RAISING MY HANDS TO JESUS AND …always opening arms to receive!! Love you like crazy!

  2. In victory one deserves it
    In defeat you need it
    Napoleon

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